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Old Mar 17, 2018, 05:24 PM
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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04 View Post
For those of you close relationships, do you become emotionally distant with your partner when in depression or dealing with other symptoms/fall out from bipolar? Or are you open about what is going on?

I have a tendency to withdrawal and be really distant with people when I'm dealing with stuff. This in turn makes them think I'm upset with them. Then I get incredibly anxious when they ask me what's wrong and just shut down to where I can't speak.

Didn't know if others went through this or had any input.
Yes it's like a vicious cycle - I just go into myself, eventually to the point where I can't even stand to be touched. C-PTSD though, depression is just one manifestation - this is really about attachment and abandonment issues for me, the closer I get to someone the more scared I get about losing them which fuels the depression and downward spiral.

I really miss love though, and yet when I am in love it comes close to killing me.
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