I hope you get better soon too. Being in the hospital is not the worst thing that can happen but I can understand it's preferable to avoid it because of the financial issues and time away from work/school issues. It is a good thing your doctor was perceptive enough to recognize the mania. I count on my therapist for recognizing my moods and the severity of them. Sorry about your reaction to Abilify I take a small dosage of it and it works well. Please recognize that we all care for you and keep posting while you work through this.