Hey t. I'm glad too that we were able to laugh about it. But I'm also worried that I've overstayed my welcome with that email I sent you last week. You were not too thrilled with my 'litigator' part. I'm still not sure I buy this parts work stuff anymore. Especially with regards to the "litigator" - it feels like avoiding responsibility, like I told you.

Anyway. I plan to ask you next time if I'm still welcome there. I want you to be honest with me, okay? I'm almost at the point of deciding that continuing to come there even when I don't think I 'need' to anymore but just because I 'want' to for continued self-exploration and learning is ok, heck I'm even on that street, just haven't pulled into the driveway yet haha, but I think I blew it by sending that email last week. I didn't mean to come across the way I obviously did. I think I may have finally succeeded in alienating you. Even though we had a really really GOOD session the other day, and we ended up laughing about that stuff, I still felt a major shift in the energy between us. Remember near the beginning of the session when you were saying that weird stuff and I asked if you would like me to just go? I forgot what you said in response to that. That was me feeling no longer welcome. I really am sorry, you know. Thank you for the suggestions for 'getting stuff away' from me without emailing you. I'm surprised that I took it as well as I did. Later I was thinking, y'know not so long ago, I would have "heard" you saying 'Bad Art!! Never email me again! I hate you!" but I didn't experience it that way. Well, I still felt the maybe I'm no longer welcome there part, but I felt that right away before we even started taking and I didn't take your suggestions about not emailing as being scolded or anything like that. I took it as, you heard me say that I was annoyed at myself for sending it, and you gave me suggestions on how not to send something in the future so I wouldn't be annoyed at myself. Anyway. I don't know what the point of any of this is. Except I think I missed having PC as a place to PUT stuff so I wouldn't email you. Hmmm.
p.s. I still think you're awesome and yesistillloveyou. There. I said it.

(PC folks I am not looking for any comments please.)