Hugs TR. I hate messing with exiles because everything else gets so loud afterward.

For me it's not that I don't feel anger. I do. I definitely turn it inward though. I have trouble with those young parts and it takes me forever to deal with them because the self hatred is so strong. I hate that little girl. I know I should have compassion for her but I really struggle with it. T thinks it is a defense mechanism, kind of a 'you can never hate me as much as I hate me so your words and actions don't effect me' kind of thing. I'm not saying she's right but it makes sense. We're working on it but it's a long process and I am not sure that can even be changed...