*I wrote this in coping with emotions but think you guys might understand me better*

I had a great day really relaxed then at night something inside me snapped. My Sister and I were talking about her and her boyfriend and I said things about her relationship as she wanted me to be honest. She didn't like it then we fought real bad like we were teenagers again. I stormed out the room she followed then it escalated. She cornered me on the stairs I started seeing red explained this to her but she won't let up. Kept shouting at me. I was 6 stairs ahead of her and went to kick her in the face. She grabbed me and I fell into her. We scraped for a wee bit then she saw red. Was going mad. We were both in tears. I really thought about hurting her so badly. She made me claustrophobic, anxious, scared and I was panicking. It took us an hour to calm down. She was not going to leave me in case I hurt myself. I have never done anything after a fight. She says it was like we were 14 again and this is why she hated me growing up. Said i was a freak and a weirdo. I don't blame her.... I am. I hate myself for getting angry but she wasntvlistening and was making the situation worse.