The fact that my first diagnosis was a load of crap and it seems like all the other doctors just went along with what I said I had. I also cant remember ever having a real episode other than depression, which could be caused by my PTSD (along with anger outbursts/irritability and psychosis). I think a lot of my "symptoms" can be explained through insomnia and PTSD. No one is in their right minds when they cant sleep, and just because I cant sleep doesn't mean I'm manic.