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Originally Posted by Tucson
IMHO I do not think a person needs to see the world around them in vibrant color to find happiness... Being excited with allot of energy may feel good, but this is not the same thing as being happy. It just is another type of “drug” that this person is on... There was one time I can say that I was actually happy and content in my life. It is more of a subtle feeling, an awareness in life. This was a surprise to me and felt very nice.
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I feel the same way, Tucson. I've experienced a deep and pervasive sense of joy spontaneously perhaps five times in my life, lasting minutes to hours. It was radically different from mania, which is frantic and destructive (for me), and this peaceful state of mind could never be achieved by manipulating my meds. It was a quiet sense of everything in life being...exactly as it
should be, I guess, a "right-ness" about life. I hope that these moments occur more often now that I'm older and my expectations about life are changing. IDK. I believe we'll ultimately be held accountable for our choices, and it's enough to strive to lead an "honorable" life.