Yes. Same situation. Except you seem a bit more stable overall, which is cool I think. For me, I can't keep the schedules, because I keep falling apart. It is funny though, I really do have the same approach as you and some of my goals are very similar too.

My answer to the issue you brought up tends to be: "Slow down. You have time to do all this gradually building yourself up." This is what I tell myself... I'd have gone mad otherwise I guess. lol

Another thing that helps me with slowing down with those expectations and goals and all that is when I compare my current state to how I was a year ago, two years ago and so on... It has to be a big enough time frame to really see the progress, I guess.

As for the conflicting goals, I find that I work best if I give myself time until the insight just comes to me about how to reconcile some of that stuff or how to arrange the goals, their timing and all that. I find it helps if I manage to access how I feel about the goals, but of course the practical aspects matter too.

But yeah it's striking to me how similar your situation is in many aspects to mine. I saw some of your earlier posts, I think it's really great, the progress you've made. Keep going!

Oh one more thing... I am curious, are you trying to rebuild yourself to return to your previous functional life or you are younger than that and it's all new to you to do all this (work, sports, all these goals etc)? For me it's the former, I try to rebuild... I just keep falling apart. I've come so far from psychosis, so I guess I should be happy and not expect too much too hard too fast. I don't know where you are coming from, but I know from some of your other posts that you've gone a long way too! So yeah, again, keep going.

EDIT: Sorry, I read your other posts now, I see you are the same as me with this too, being very high functional in many things (except socially... I didn't have friends like you did and I never went out) and then boom, mental illness. So yeah we really are very similar here and I totally get your struggle here.