Unannounced? Like to your house or something? I know what that does for me so hugs to you.

I hate surprises, especially by family. It instantly causes me to dis and shell up like you did....then eventually rage and anger would swell because of the audacity of it all when it is finished. Just the presence or voice of my father can instantly destroy any amount of self-respect and take us back to the beginning, because of this, I lost his phone number.

Rage and anger seems to be our inner justice warriors. They then fuss and fume for days to weeks it seems about just the fact that we were mind controlled till they melt away only to trigger at any and all future thoughts for years to come of what happened till the thought is gone.

I hope it’s not like that for you honey....it’s no fun not being able to control yourself....to have your emotional parts run amuck. I feel broken and out of sorts because I can’t do anything to stop them for they have to run their energy down.

So as advice as how to deal, idk.

I always end up drinking away the inner turmoil. Drink will fuel the fire at first, but eventually tire it out to smoldering, it can smolder for days- low enough so that I am able to resume control.

This isn’t a healthy way to deal/cope because most of our techniques go out the window when a hard switch happens.

How are you taking it? How are you able to cope with such an event? Will this affect you for days?

I hope that you have healthier or better ways of dealing with all this...I just don’t see how one with DID can. Do you?