((Sunny))

Thanks -- I am barely ok.

Someone else asked me the same questions in PM. No, i don't wish I had a plan and no he didn't suddenly share one with me. The one thing I know about myself is that if my therapy is not self directed it won't work.

I was really just curious and the curiosity was prompted by certain things that he said to me, (that made me think he was changing gears) so I began to wonder.

This rupture has taken its toll and although I suspect we will repair, at this moment I truly don't know. I am working through a tremendous amount of past trauma/abandonment. It is very painful and sometimes T is a bumbling idiot in his efforts and it begins to feel like abuse.

I am in a lot of pain right now, but I plan to keep posting about the rupture. (I'm sure there will be something tonight if I can manage it....)

Thank you for asking.

Peace