I was in the same boat with being misdiagnosed with unipolar depression for over twenty years. With each new AD I would feel numb for a few weeks and then the mood swings would kick back in again. In 2013 my then pdoc decided to try me on Lamictal. That was like someone flipping a switch. It didn't work long, though. I'm now on Latuda and that has calmed things down quite a bit. I accept bipolar because it made more sense to me. I was already ostracized for having borderline PD, and I wasn't diagnosed for bipolar until after I lost my job. I'm sure it may be grist for the rumor mill amongst my old colleagues, but I don't see them and honestly I don't care.