When reading about Bipolar, lately the symptom "flight of ideas" jumps out at me as something that is causing me a lot of problems and interferes with my functioning.

I think I am rapidly cycling a lot lately. When I have periods of energy, I've been telling people "let's plan a trip here..." "let's do this and let's do that."
Even at work, I recently took on more responsibility, thinking it will be fine, and now I wish I had put my foot in my mouth. I feel lately that I mislead people into thinking I want to and have the ability to do all these things. When I'm in hypomania, I really think that I can keep up with all this stuff. However, I can't. I really can't. I'm at my breaking point.

Not to mention, I had the worst stomach problems yesterday from something I ate, and it interfered with taking my meds, so I feel even more off balance (missing Seroquel until finally taking half a dose this morning when I was finally able to keep it down especially messed me up).

I was feeling some relief from depression during those recent bouts of hypomania, but the depression is coming back hard. I didn't even want to be seen the other day. I have just been wanting to wear my pajamas and not be seen. Right now, I kind of envy people who look forward to dressing up and going out with confidence. I want to disappear. I really do.

Now, I feel like I am going to let everybody down who witnessed me being productive and full of ideas and energy. I feel like a bad friend during depression. I don't want to go out or do anything. I don't even know who I am anymore or what I want, because my behavior and ideas are so all over the place.

I am just really struggling and would like to hear from anybody else who can relate to having so many ideas during hypomania or mania, but then all of the sudden, you can't keep up and don't know what to do to deal with the aftermath? I just don't know where to go from this point on.