he asked me what we needed to talk about... and i couldn't even put words to it... i kind of stumbled with it...but all that did was frustrate me... and made me so angry at myself when i got home and began to process what happened... he is going to be gone in feb for 2 weeks.. and that doesn't feel safe.

kiya... i understand the feeling guilty...and not wanting to say anything... i am sorry this keeps happening to you... will you be able to call the clinic this morning before you go to work? i hope that they are calling to tell you that they have a plan to get you in this week... when my appointments get shuffled around it makes it hard for me to feel safe... and i shut down...lyn