thanks for respnonding everyone, i would have to agree that i'm obsessed with what people think of me. I have had sexual experiences with girls and my former girlfriend, all which were positive. I don't think my fear of being gay has anything to do with sex. I would agree that being gay is less about sex than anything else. I am positive that i'm not just gay, if what i'm afraid of is true than i would have to be bi at least. For now I think i'm stressed about it more because more and more people are becoming anti-gay in america and therefore accussing more people of being so. It's funny because i'll be having a great day and feeling really good about myself and then someone will come along and say something about something being gay or what not and it will just ruin my day from then on. I'll be working and at that moment i just want to quite so i can go be by myself and not feel like someone is trying to place me in a catagory or tying to figure out if i'm gay.
And there is nothing worse than having the person you love question that about you, and then go as far to believe that your best friend is love with you and you with him. I mean after something like that i don't even want to have friends that are guys. And much more I don't want keep having to prove to her that i'm not gay.
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