> What is wrong with me, or is it the world.

> Acceptance? Understanding? Love? Appreciation?

I think there is some of that -- but a lot that is not. This is not a world that has much understanding of people who are "down." Think of the Native Americans, and how the dominant society has treated them. Many other examples are possible. So, no, it is not just "you." The hard part is to find places where there is understanding.