I can't sleep. I can't think. I'm stressed and anxious. I'm afraid to sleep. I recently nodded off to sleep. Thought I could get some sleep in. Then when I was just about to fall asleep "I heard my own thoughts yelling really loud." "My anxiety was pretty high" Idk what to do anymore. I feel like I'm going nuts. Could my medicine be causing me to feel like this? I'm on depekote 250mg twice a day. I only feel like **** when I take it. My thoughts are under control a bit but when I try to fall asleep it feels like I'm under allot of stress. I don't know what to do to calm my self down. I have Bipolar II with mixed features and PTSD. I think it is the Bipolar doing it. All I want is sleep. I heard my self yelling at my mom when I was about to fall asleep. Could it be Exploding Head Syndrome too? I'm about to take a trip to my doc and ask him what's up because I can't take this anymore. He'll just tell me to wait till I see my psychiatrist but I have to wait for a month to see him. I just want relief. On top of my anxiety and stress acting up big time it doesn't help. I don't know what to do to calm down. My body feels hot so I'm pretty sure it's anxiety and stress. I wanna go to my doc like I said but scared to tell him about my experience I had. My depekote is suppose to control my rushing thoughts and depression as he claims. But I feel like it's making me feel worse. If I go to the ER they'll either send me home or to the funny farm. Blah. I wish I was like my mom. She has bipolar too as well and she controls it and hers isn't as bad. Some people are lucky I guess. Anyone been through the same situation as me? I'm not hearing voices but I'm hearing my own voice when I fall asleep. Like my thoughts are rushing a hundred miles an hour like I'm frustrated at something