We care about you ltlredvett
The words that popped out of your post was that "I am glad yesterday is over" - see? you made it - mind you I am sure you were sad and upset but you made it! You will get through today too. Take it one day at a time and you will wake up one morning not as sad as you were the day before.
I am sorry about your headaches...I suffer with migraines myself and I understand how the pain can overwhelm you.
I can't remember (sorry about this) but did you say if you were on any meds? What about a therapist? Have you looked at those options yet? There are so many highly qualified people out there that can help you through this. Sometimes just talking about it to a neutral person who does not judge what we say makes such a difference. The weight on the shoulders doesn't seem so heavy then.
Please keep taking care of yourself as like I said earlier - we do care {{{{{{{{ltlredvett}}}}}}}}

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