So I've been taking the Ativan, albeit rarely because it is so sedating that I can't take it and function properly at work. I even took half of a .5 pill last week sometime and was still super sedated. Anyway when I DO take it, it seems to tumble my mood down for a whole day. Like I took it on Saturday morning because I was high out of my mind and needed to chill tf out, but then sunday I was sooooo depressed I wanted to just let it burn, to say the least. Could that be ativan or am I just cycling that ****ing rapidly? Because today I'm HIGH AF again.

I'm like bordering on Mania for sure but Something is keeping me down, i guess it's the depakote doing SOMETHING at least, it's certainly not rexulti, that **** is causing this mess, I'm sure of it. it's only not mixed or worse because I'm not on an AD right now.

Anyway I don't want to take the ativan if it's going to cause a soul-crushing depression yet if I get too high and freaked out I need something so I guess I'll have to.