I will admit that your email made me happy. A couple sentences? I feel like I'm grabbing for crumbs sometimes. But I know it's better. And Maybe I wont need the crumbs anymore soon. Sometimes it still does hurt a lot, but I don't dwell on it as much anymore. I just wonder if it's different for you too. Does it affect you at all? You said once that it does, but just in a different way. I didn't really know what that meant and didn't ask you about it. Wouldn't that be so silly , if you haven't thought twice about it. Meanwhile it's taken me almost 2 years to get to the point where I am moderately okay with it. I just hope you recognize the potential power you have to hold over someone else, do you see That?

I also hope you might have learned something from it. It definitely felt devastating when we went from daily contact to one hour a week, no matter how much we discussed it. I forgive you though, I always will