Yes. This is why he feels that I lied. I didn't tell him about the amount of my partner's and I didn't tell him about the test I made when we were already together but I didn't tell him. I feel so bad about it and don't understand myself.

And what you suggest would have been a better approach!

Today a similar situation accured. When he tells me his point of view I totally get it. And I think he is right. Still there was some sense in my behavior. But all in all I feel like I am losing some sense for reality.
Today was about money... I know I am putting myself under high pressure to find a job. Since I had that burnout I was in the luxurious position to be financially supported by my parents... yes and maybe this is exactly why it took me (I would like to swear) 3 years to write a Master thesis... and he knew that my parents still offer to support me financially. But that I won't accept because I don't need it, since they gave me a lot of money after I finished my first degree. I never used it. I never asked for this. I feel like a total loser who's totally unqualified...
When he asked why I won't apply for government support I said that I won't get any because there is this bank account my grandparents had put in money for me (and frankly, because I would feel like a cheat,I don't need it)
Now it is the same thing again: To him it seems like I am telling half truths when I didn't mention the account earlier. To him it is like a big fat lie...
I am stressing out because I feel worthless and unqualified and yes I am doing a cleaning job at the moment... but it is money I earned myself.
When he lost his job and I offered to take my share of the car, he refused because it was my partner's money... and he keeps telling me what a dissolute lifestyle I had and still have... and I feel stupid no matter what I do. I can't find a qualified job, so I took any to earn something... and his family has never had much, the opposite. So to him it looks like I am playing poor...

And when he puts it that way it makes sense. I wish I had told him and suggested to invest in our projects or his company... (which is the same...) But I was so sure he would never accept it. I thought money that I earned honestly would have been easier for him to accept. And still want to move, so that he can come to my place... I'be been living at his place for over three months... paying half the rent at the end of the month... because there is not a commitment to living together. And I don't want to give up my rented room, because it would put pressure on him.
We are often using his car. I pay about every second time for petrol. I know there are far more expenses to a car. But now he is saying that I am exploiting him... using his car when I could by one of my own.

I know this should not be a problem. It is luxury. But when he confronted me with the statement: "You could do so many things and you're doing nothing ..." I know he is right... but there is the same pressure to perform and achieve that got me into the burnout. And it just makes me want to put most of the money on his account. I know he could realize great things with... and I never wanted this... as I am writing this I feel more and more foolish... and disgusted by myself.

I don't know... to him it is a vital question weather he can keep his small flat and the old car that he needs to realize his projects... I would say essentially it is about self-realization a d dreams. Financially there would be a solution...
To me it is the same. Only that my vital question is about my lack of qualification and the feeling that I won't be able to realize anything... OK I probably sound like a total prat who is way to full of herself...