Thank you for replying. I'm really spiraling right now. I can tell my offline friends don't know what to say, and when I don't get replies here either it makes me feel like a total lost cause. I know I am, but, in spite of how it may sound, I'm really trying to find a way to look toward the future, and tell myself it won't always feel like this. It's just that it always comes back to this.

Thank you.