I know all too well what you are going through. Although I didn't even know I was a victim until recently. Long story short - some abuse happened as a child and my family covered it up and won't talk about it now. I was so small, plus it was so painful, that I don't remember. I have been through EMDR therapy but to no avail. My therapist thinks that it's hidden so deep that it's going to be very hard to get to.

I may never know the true story and I'm learning that it may be OK if I don't find out. It's hard, because our minds initially think that we have to know every detail. For some people, maybe it's best to not know - as hard as that sounds.

I hope that you are able to find some inner peace - whether you have a full recollection or not. Please know that you are not alone. If you ever want to talk about your challenges, please feel free to PM me. Maybe we can help each other with a similar situation.

Namaste,
Misty