Ok. So first of all, hey there guys! I am noob in this site, so I hope I'm posting in the correct forum.


Anyways. In three days time, I have to prepare my Valedictorian (farewell) speech, and honestly...I didn't think my fears would permeate public speaking as well, because I'm usually more concerned about health related issues.

My first fear is: I don't even have a draft ready, nada. I don't know what joke would I make of myself on the stage.
Secondly, I think everyone hates me, and hates me even more because I was chosen for the speech. I fear my speech ending with glares from my classmates and boos from the crowd and derisive snickers from my juniors (they think I'm that one loser nerd who has upped their parent's expectation about them, thus, made their lives hell)
I don't know where to start. I've always been insecure about my intelligence. And my mom thinks I always need to be protected. Is it because I'm so dumb? I could have used this time preparing for my speech instead of posting in a forum.
My insecurities haven't gotten worse yet but I know it will. It will steal my sleep, because I'm so concerned about what others will think, if they think I'm ugly when the spotlight's on me etc. Guys...please please, if you have any words of comfort, say it. I feel so completely cornered by my anxious nature.