I honestly have no idea why I am posting this.. normally I avoid this forum like the plague, but there is just something that has really been getting to me lately. But, now that I am actually here, posting in this forum for God knows what reason I keep stairing at the title of the forum "survivors of abuse" what would make me a survior.. what if I am really falling apart on the inside? What if I have so many doubts about the reasons everything happened the way it happened. I question if what i really went through justifies me posting here because quite frankly, I dont feel like a survior.. I just feel confused and these past few weeks its all thats been on my mind...