Thank you for posting this.
It helped me feel less alone as I do have similar emotions.
I have been a loner, whilst desperately craving for genuine human connections, for as long as I remember. My life consisted of a lot of moving around and I ended up alone.
I know that it is up to me to get out of this pit but I have lost a blood line of motivation and enthusiasm as my MI has resulted in overwhelming amount of emotional and physical pain and anxiety.
I am trying to say is that I understand. I wish i had some solutions for us but I don’t. The only thing i can say is that lets not give up.
I understand what you mean regarding online friends. I have had difficulty maintaining my friendships in real life and I have not had any online friends until I found PC.
Give Pc a chance, I have met nice people here. Again, it also depends on the effort you put in.
Reach out to us and share your struggles.