Hi Kayleigh -- I have felt like that. I had to finally get out of the recliner to which I was glued, get a T, and that led to getting meds. People at psych central telling me that I had to do these things over and over again finally penetrated my thick head.

I also was reading and doing what I could to practice Cognitive Behavior Therapy during this period of profound depression.

One of the small things I could do was to stop telling myself "I can't go on" and tell myself "I can hardly go on." That "hardly" opens up just a tiny little place in oneself where hope can live, like a flower growing in a crack in the cement.

Do call a hotline or go to ER and take care of yourself. We care about you, KLee, and you are worth it.