Hey. I find it hard to feel close to my therapist if there is a break, too. One thing I try and do... Is when I feel lonely I try and call to mind some time when I saw him that I felt particularly connected to him. Sometimes I can summon that feeling of connection by doing so. It can be hard though, yeah.

I worry... That he won't come back. That I'll never feel connected to him again :-(

Is that maybe what is going on for you?