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Double-edged sword. Funny, I have known this man for 10 years. I knew from the first time I saw him - that was it.......I was crazy about him and what is even harder is the CHEMSITRY. Took us 9 years to come around to each other's paths. And then it abruptly ended with alcohol. I feel I have lost my soulmate too (I am sure it compares nothing to the loss of 10 years of marriage) - thus the reason I have stopped drinking. Can't loose myself.

I know from the small year of experience I was with him.............its not our fault they can't stop and we can't make them. It's hard for me to swallow........

I have a knack for trying to "fix" people. When I look back, if I had spent all that energy on myself........the places I would be today......

You're right. I can't force him......and then I have to always be on guard about the day he falls back...................it's hard to think about. For now I am leaving him be. Focusing on me. I think it's all I can do.

Thanks for your input and I am sincerely touched by your post.