Thanks so much for your support and comments everyone. I go inpatient in four hours. Made it through the night. Hardly slept but about to go for a swim as it’s a hot morning and I have no aircon. For the time I’m in the water I feel better then crash afterwards. Still don’t want to go in but know I have to. Will update you when I’m sort of settled in hospital. Really hope treatment helps quickly. I need this to be a quick hospitalisation. Last one was two months.