One thing you helped me figure out last week, is how gender influenced the relationship is. Right now, there is a dynamic I would never allow in my personal life, of me trying to elict empathy and him backing off from giving it like he used to. My instinct is then to back off even further, and even go seeT2. This shouldn't be part of therapy, especially with a male therapist treating a female rape victim. He has been so so there, so caring, and really proving he can talk about everything without a yuck factor, and he has . Now that we have moved on topics, it is like he closed his heart me when it was widely opened for reasons unknown to me ,and I am tired of facing that change in him 2x a week.

I want to draw a line of pride- and just not go back.

I abby no means in love with my T,but my life this year has ben a nonstop conversation with him about secrets no one else knows. Its makes a bond. I feel kind of betrayed it is likely a one-way bond, and that his caring so intense was likely fake or at least intentional.