I do agree there is something that shouldn't show about how he kind of wants my type of case almost like to demonstrate he is a top dog trauma t new to the city.

I dont think he would have given me all that care and attention otherwise, and for some reason, it hurts deeply to sense that.

I appreciate you extracting that from all the rambling comments. I just hurt over this relationship ,but I dont know if that is because of my "trauma demographic" or because something is wrong.

I am so attached to my T. He has lots swagger and wit and cleverness. He also can be very loving in the right places, pouring in a steady stream insight and perception that feels like a hug despite the no hug rule( which I am thankful for that rule).

The main thing is that after every session, I feel bereft and he doesn't think that is his problem,becasuse I feel safe inside his space and inside his session. That is kind of the crux there - I envision a more wholistic relationship and he doesnt. Cinderella/pumpkin; C ya wouldnt want to be ya.

Am I just a brat about the typical therapy rules or is he rigid about boundaries or both. He is very proud he has the most strict boundaries of all the psychologists he knows ,and he challenged me isnt it good for me and dont I feel safe in his space. The answers yes and no.The whole session was a lecture on why he is right. I finally just walked out.