Hey guys I was hoping I could get some advice. So Ive,seen my psyche nurse today and she told me everything's normal. But my anxiety is already worse than it is I'm about to lose my mind. I can't sleep. I'm losing weight. Im not allowed to go to the ER. I feel dehydrated and losing appetite. I don't know what to do
I've been on edge and I've been having bad insomnia. Just a FWI my weight hasn't been dropping rapidly. I just don't feel like eating. I want to bring it up to my doctor but he wants me to see my psychiatrist instead. My mom's pretty much getting fed up with my problem too. I feel like I'm just going to say it and have my self locked up because no one really gives a ****. Everyone thinks I'm being negative and I'm bringing my self down and then down. My nightmares are getting worse. More vivid dreams etc. Making me afraid to sleep. I'm afraid of dying etc. If I sleep I feel like I'm having a panic attack in my sleep. And I feel like I'm obsessed with obsessing over the word "my anxiety" I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Im trying to get help. But I feel like no one wants to help me at this point. My muscles are tensed and I'm getting migraines. I can't relax. I would see if I could get Dr Phil to help as a last resort. But I'm pretty sure he's got bigger problems to do and I probably can't afford him. But me dragging my family downs not helping either. I feel depressed too. I just feel hopeless. I'm afraid that if I keep this up my family might actually lock me out or kick me out. It's constant obsessing. I just want to get better but that's a crime now apparently. I got a new job but if this anxiety is getting too out of control idk what I should do. And I'm so sick of the nightmares and I feel like a hypocondriac because my parents make jokes about it and thinking about anxiety makes me feel worse. I really don't want to get comitted. My chest hurts and I have a hard time breathing and sleeping and I feel like everyone is pretty much fed up with me and given up on me. I honestly feel like I'm going to die if I don't get help soon. My blood pressure was normal but I cannot control the obsessive thoughts and worrying etc. I went to have Chinese with my mom at lunch and it felt like I was about to have a psychotic mood swing episode but I controlled it pretty well. I've been on edge. So idk what to do anymore. My parents are pretty much Fed up with me and I don't feel like there's hope for me. How can I simply stop what I'm doing and get my life in track? I'm constantly worrying every day it's making me sick and over whelmed. :'( Plus my pdoc refuses to prescribe me a new medicine but my psychiatrist said he could. They got a doctor's in my therapy place. Now I have to change doctors to properly write me meds so I can think properly. Im so frustrasted idk what to do. Every one looks at me like you need to chill, etc. It just makes me more anxious. Mom hurt her self and she screamed I jumped 10 ft in the air had my heart pounding out of my chest making me worry if she was alright. And my family refuses to take me to the hospital. I feel like I'll feel better if I go but they refuse to take me and we argue about it. If I see my proc you got anxiety your ok blah blah. So sick of it I feel like I'm gonna die if I don't get proper help. T_T feeling stressed and anxious is making me not wanna eat or drink it blows. Sorry for venting. Am I just being a hypocondriac in genetal? Man I feel like a mess. I'm constantly worrying about the anxiety it's stressing me out. Idk what to do to take my mind off it. I know I can't get better over night.