Hi Essme. I have no doubt you're convinced that what you're saying is real and that you believe all those things are actually happening to you, but I'm certain it's your schizophrenia distorting ordinary things into something else. Hang in there and try not to worry, though. Talk to your doctor again, your therapist, and let them help you overcome the symptoms you've described. You're doing very well, and you'll get through this.