I'm so so scared of any form of rejection from my T. She hasn't ever rejected me but the thoughts still linger. Its crazy how my mind thinks up ways she can reject me.....I feel that my bond with T is so strong that I dred it ever seperating, or coming undone. I constantly come up with things - she knows of them and does her best to tell me their not true. I feel like e-mailing her often but I'm afraid of rejection but I know somehow it won't happen...yet i think it will...bah I dont make sense do I? Bah.....obessing over T...issue within itself...but how can I not obesse when she's the only "real" person who cares that I have in REal life/my area. Help
Dustin
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