Iceskater, you haven't followed the previous posts to know the story. If you'd like to know more, I'd suggest looking them up.

Trust me when I say that we are not getting back together. To suggest this, while possibly well-intentioned is not helpful.

I'm totally blaming myself because that is part of the complete mind-screw that this kind of abuser wants to put on you. And yes, I still believe I had something to do with it. RATIONALLY, however, in that part of me which isn't winning the battle here, I know this guy preys on women. And he's doing it right now with the woman he was ****ing the whole time he was telling me things were monogamous.

And now he tells her I was just some obsessed crazy chick he has to try and rebuild his life from. After thirteen years of friendship, this is all I am. Oh, and I was a human blow up doll. That's pretty much the extent of what I was to him.

So no, he wasn't interested in ME. He was interested in the conquest, of having another pretty redhead in his bed. Of feeling dominant and powerful. And, with me, unfortunately, he succeeded,