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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
Apologies if you don't want feedback in this thread. Just wanted to empathize and say (as someone who has worked at home most of each week) that this is a really difficult situation. My H had an office job so I was always the one who stayed home on school days or when he was sick. He was (and is) a pretty high needs child and I'm pretty high on need for solitude as well as getting work done. It seemed to me like the closer my deadline, the more he interrupted me, and could be extremely charming in his attempts to engage me. Actually this is still true, it's like a closed door and communication around my need to be left alone translates into so many urgent requests like "Mom, could we spend some time together after your work?" and "do you know where the luna bars are?" I try to be humorous in my interactions now, but many a ***** has been lost over the years, and he's almost 17.
And I would also encourage you to put yourself first at least some of the time. It is okay to protect your therapy time from other things that needed to be scheduled. It took me awhile to realize that being ultra flexible while everyone else was protecting certain times from scheduling just screwed myself. I started to try to communicate this idea to my son when he was 3 or 4, "Mom needs some time to herself." And I would shut my office door for 2 minutes (he was usually standing there when I opened it). I gradually expanded the time. Now he says, "I need some time to myself."
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Thanks, Anne. It helps to hear that you understand. I just feel like I should be more tolerant of my D and handle my stress better. But I guess handling stress (and guilt and perfectionism about work, parenting, etc.) better is part of what I go to therapy to learn to do (generalized anxiety, panic disorder, OCD, episodes of major depression). So, like you said, I should take that time for myself, both for therapy and otherwise.
I did end up playing with her in the snow for a half hour, which was a lot of fun and made earlier this morning worth it, I think. Still have a bit of work to do, but will manage. Again, thanks for the support!