I'm just like you in that I want to buy the Nintendo Switch, which is a $500 console like the one you want, but whenever I do manage to get enough to spend on one, I'm like, "Nooooo, noooo..." (like Consuela from Family Guy), because I don't feel like I should be spending such money on myself. I get nervous about spending large amounts of money on myself like that. Small purchases I can do no problem, but large ones? No way.