I do feel like that and (a little off topic) my "personality" becomes something unfamiliar to me with people I come in contact with IRL.

Feeling out of place, don't know what to say, act....just stuff I really don't want to think about because of the possibility of being even more antisocial (if that's a thing).

Even here I feel out of place, not worthy and the list spirals...

But it's all in my head? Or am I capable of being a constructive observer.. meh I lost my chain of thought