I'm SO sad, depressed, and confused. It's my fault. I am the idiot. I just hate myself with a passion!

I can't talk to anyone about what's happening within me. My eyes keep welling up with tears, but I can't figure out the emotion that I am feeling and why. Then I get frustrated with myself and the cycle repeats.

No matter where I go or what I am doing, my damn misery continues. I can't stand it!