Yeah. People I know tend to think of that stuff as funny.

Its not funny looking back on it. Looking back on it is painful, and I feel so ashamed sometimes that some of those things WERE me.

But everyone does things sometimes they arent proud of, and its easy to beat yourself up, or say those things werent you- they WERE you, and its ok. Forgiving yourself and learning to work with yourself is the hardest thing.