It sounds like anxiety. What you described after smoking the pot was a panic attack. Pot will do that. Now you are feeling paranoid that you did some permanent damage which is causing you to feel anxious. Anxiety and depression go together. Anxiety will keep you at home. It will isolate you. It will make you feel like you are going crazy. This will depress you.

You may want to see a PDOC. They may prescribe anxiety meds until you can get it under control. When you start feeling the anxiety coming on use the tools your T has taught you. Nobody has ever died from a panic attack.

I smoked pot for 30 years. I went into recovery about 2 years ago. When I started recovery is when I had my first panic attack. I have had anxiety ever since then. The pot was covering up all my feelings & problems. I learned to use the tools my T has taught me to get through the panic.

Hope this helps. Your not going crazy.