<font color="red"> </font> <font color="red"> </font> it's SUPPOSE TO RAIN TOMORROW BUT IT'S RAINING IN MY APARTMENT NOW. YEA, TEARS ARE FLOWING FROM MY EYES BECAUSE EVERYTIME I MENTION A NEIGHBOR INVITING ME TO GO SOMEWHERE W/THEM I DON'T GO AND MY SAYS I SHOULD GO SO I CAN MAKE NEW FRIENDS. I GET SO TIRED AND FILED W/ANXIETY WHEN THEY TELL ME THIS. I JUST WANT TO HIDE, I JUST WANT TO SCREAM SO I CRY INSTEAD. WHEN I GET ANGRY WHICH IS VERY RARELY IN FACT, I GUESS I SHOULD CALL IT IRRITABLE, I DON'T THROW THINGS, I DON'T PUNCH MY PILLW AND I DON'T BREAK DISHES. I JUST STUFF IT INSIDE. I KNOW THEY LOVE ME BUT I'M JUST NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO TELL THEM, TO BACK OFF. I ALWAYS TELL MY NEIGHBORS SURE I WOULD LIKE TO GO BUT I DON'T. I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE IT RIGHT NOW OR EVER. I THINK I WILL STAY DEPRESSED THE REST OF MY LIFE, I SEE NO END IN SIGHT,,,,,,,,,,PJ56