I can't muster any energy to show that I am happy about passing, don't feel well. I might think it was depression or stress if it weren't for that I have a bunch of symptoms now over time including unexplained bruising and vomiting besides the fatigue so that I know something is definitely wrong.

I finally got into the doctor. My labs are way off including that my white cell count is through the roof and platelets are non-existent. I am sick it turns out is why I feel so lousy. I am being referred to a specialist and for more testing meanwhile. So it turns out it wasn't just stress killing my motivation to study, illness was, go figure. .

Meanwhile, celebrating with friends and family will have to wait. At least the stress of the exam is gone; I know deep down that I did it, and am I am jumping for joy and doing a happy dance inside even if that is not possible right now.