I'm an 18 year old girl, Italian, and I'm sick and tired of hiding myself. I've always been extremely smart since I was a kid, with a striking aptitude for math and science. I always got straight A's with almost no studying, especially in math, physics, chemistry and biology. the point is, in my school there's no special program for gifted education. for the last 4 years I had to fake my real skills just to skip form one grade to another, and no one of my teachers understands my real abilities and needs. i would like to challenge myself with really hard math and physics books and teachings, but I simply have no access to them. classes are boring and repetitive. this is really bringing me down. all the people who know me tell me that I can have an extremely brilliant career in a stem field, and suggest me to enroll in engineering at university. the point is, nobody seems to recognize my talent. I'm also on antidepressants for a year since I broke with my lesbian girlfriend (we had been together for 5 years, since we were 13). what should I do?