I did not sleep well last night. Got about 3 1/2 hours and not especially tired. I think I have hypomania. I am resisting the urge to shop online and spend money I don't have. I am not eating much because of the hypo, and I really need to gain weight. I have a past with anorexia, but this weight gain issue isn't so much the eating disorder, more like I'm not hungry, don't want to take the time to eat, can't be bothered. And, it feels like my metabolism speeds up when manic. I am now quite underweight for my height, and on some level, the eating disorder likes this (ugh!), but I am not so underweight I look like an eating disorder victim. I need to throw the scale away, even if my husband likes keeping track of his weight on it.

I did put in a call to my psych clinic, asking them to have my pdoc call me back. They tend to be good with messages and the doctors good with calling back, so I have to wait & see.

In the meantime, I'm meeting a friend I met on Nextdoor (she was giving away a pair of blue jeans just my size). We've been communicating over FB Messenger and found we have a lot in common. She has psych issues too (depression & anxiety/panic disorder). She worked as a hair stylist before her kids were born, and it's the strangest thing, she worked at exactly the same hair salon I use now and knows the owner well (I use the owner for my haircuts; I think she does it best). We even have practically identical scars above our belly buttons, her from a weight loss surgery near 2000 and me from a recent ulcer surgery. Crazy! I hope lunch will go well. I have a really hard time making friends. In fact, I don't have a single friend living in my area, not counting one of my sisters, and that sister is still a 30 minute drive away, while this lady lives less than 5 minutes away. I think we are going to meet at McDonalds, so the play area will keep her preschool kids occupied. I hope it goes well.