I completely understand wanting to make progress. I understand feeling utterly restless and yet completely exhausted at the same time.
Here's the thing... you have to be reasonable.
Unless you are a laundry mat, or have an outfit change 10 times in a day... 10 loads of laundry in one day is incredibly excessive. If you want to do something like that, you have to pace yourself. Spread it out over a weekend. Stretch or do yoga in between. Otherwise, you are just punishing yourself.
Learn to accept QUALITY over quantity. It's still progress, but you won't set yourself back.
Do something that will improve tomorrow's situation.
For example:
In the morning, clean your kitchen as your coffee or tea is brewing. Drink your beverage, relax. Shower, dress, eat.
In the afternoon, go to the grocery store (with your list!). Get home and unpack your food. RELAX and snack.
In the evening, make a REAL meal. Soak the pots, pans, dishes. Clean up if you have the energy or let it wait for the morning.
The next day, you have food in the house, your kitchen is clean, and you can start in on the next room. Even that sounds like a lot for one day, but you will feel like super hero the next day ready to tackle something else. Or else, you won't be still sitting in the same mess.
No one else is going to wipe your *** (unless you have a paid nurse), and you aren't going to wipe their's. Stop comparing yourself to other people. It will never serve you.
Compare yourself to who you were yesterday. There's nothing wrong with giving your body and soul the rest that you need. If you are not happy with your lack of progress, then do something that helps, not hurts.
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For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn't understand growth, it would look like complete destruction. -Cynthia Occelli
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