Hey, that is great point that that I might think so much about my T to evade thinking about myself.

I dont think I am looking for him to treat me specially, so much as to trust judgement about what is too much, and if prolonged exposure therapy stuff is something I can manage while still functioning highly in my real life.

It is like he teaches me how to take out trauma formats Pandora's box, talk about it (things I didnt know how to do before therapy), but he doesnt teach me how to put it back away so I can do my job, focus on BF and my friends, etc. It would be consoling to feel like he was watching over the overall process so it doesnt contaminate my present life like it did the distant past.

I will give the idea thought - maybe I do want some special attention, having always concentrated on blending into my peer group and keeping secret anything "bad" . Maybe I do feel, having finally told someone, that he has to care ,when he is really seeing himself as a doctor doing a job in the office ( a very good job ) and it is BF I should be telling if I want that really deep connectedness longer than the session.

Thanks for the really good post to think about .

The session was confusing- we didnt break up but there was an edge - whereas there used to be a really easy affection. I hope therein be peace .

I had this uncanny feeling he read this thread ( lol if you are my T ,and you are reading this,then you lose all credibility about boundaries! )