There was a short period during the worst of my illness when I just felt blank or so extremely in turmoil that I sort of lost myself. However, most of my life I knew fairly well who I was. The thing is, that I believe I am a multi-faceted person. It's not that I'm different people during different moods or different times of my life, but more that different parts of ME come out at different times. But at the same time, there is the root me. Also, as I've aged and experienced different things, I've grown in ways and transformed in others, but not into someone different. Just a wiser, more mature me.

Sometimes the "young" features come out. That's kind of fun, but their not necessarily better than my current features. On the whole, the current final product of my life experiences is pretty good. I do see things a little differently from my current spot. Why wouldn't I? Definitions change a little, likes and dislikes to a degree, etc.