I do not feel strong, I wish I was as everyone says, but I am not, a coward is more of the word or I wouldn't be where I am today!

I did call my lawyer today, first thing I asked was if I could take the kids and move out, my gf offered us to stay with her, she has basement done over not in use right now, I would take it. But my lawyer said no way!! If I take the kids and go, he could get me for kidnapping......if I just leave he could get me for abandonment later on and I could lose shared custody, he has me doesn't he??? So I asked about the court order to get him out because of the emotional abuse and verbal abuse, and he said we can go that route, also the financial support, but it is going to get ugly in court!!! He just wants me aware of where it is going to lead........is there ever a easy solution?????? Just a break, one freakin break!!

I didn't talk to T today, he did email and wanted to know what was going on and if I was ok, and needed anything........I didn't have the energy after chasing the lawyer today to go there with T. Tomorrow I will call him and ask for a appt!!