I don't think I'm becoming a danger or a threat honestly. I just feel like I'm losing my self. Lack of sleep, stress, etc. I don't think my current meds "Depekote" are helping either. I feel a bit calm after taking them befofe bed. But i think they stopped helping all together. My proc refuses to prescribe meds anymore. He suggests I see my ps6but I can't wait that long. I have to wait 2 more weeks. Hopefully if another client doesn't show they can get me in. My pdoc don't do anything for my bipolar. I control my anger too if someone annoys me. I just feel like I need someone to talk to about all my problems. It's just sad when it gets bad to the point when your own family tells you to grow up and get over it and stop worrying. I can't just flick my finger over night and get better. I'd be rich. I just want to feel like my self again like I did 11 months ago when I didn't develop these hypomanic episodes. Plus living with someone who has bipolar as well doesn't help either "mom" yet she controls it. I'm pretty sure I saw her had a mild depressive episode but I left her alone cus I didn't want to upset her. And me having GAD with BPII don't help. I don't know if both can be treated. And I'm pretty sure I'm not allowed to drive now. I was planning on getting my license. But I'm guessing my life is over. Tho my cousin had BPII worse than me. Should I be grateful that the majority of what she had didn't happen to me and get over it? And I'm not saying that In a mean way. I worry about my cousin too.